'be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.' -1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

some how i feel like this particular verse has been speaking to me. lately, ive been feeling so uncomfortable. like something isnt right and that something horrible will happen. maybe its just past events (from last week) that is catching up with me.

i cried two nights in a row a few days ago. everytime i log on the bank's website to see if the problem has been resolved, it hasnt. the negative balance is still there and everytime i look at it, its just another constant reminder of somethng in my life that isnt going the way i want it to go.

and with that, i know that is a life lesson waiting to be taught. and im slowly learning.

the other day, pastor ed, before he began his sermon prayed that if we needed peace, for God to give it to us. he prayed for us to trust God. and with that prayer, i silently prayed it to God too. and slowly, i felt that burden start to slowly lift.

it hasnt lifted completly just yet, but i can feel myself being above the water again.

and i am constantly learning to completely surrender everything over. again and again. as many times as it takes.

know that life is hard, but its worth it in the end, listen to me now for the love, oh love, It's waiting for you just to say here come better days here come better days,better days, and a better place I know.