i check the clock. 4:32 AM. i certainly abuse my priviledges of not having class til next week. sleep at the wee hours of the morning, waking up 2 hours before my sister is scheduled to come home. what do i do with all that free time? geez, my first semester of my second year of college is almost up. where does all that time fly? been awhile since ive blogged huh? there's something about this blog that brings back so many memories. good thing i kept all the archives. perhaps ill continue to post on this thing. most people dont know the url to this..so that's a good thing.

dear God,

its me again. its been awhile since the last time ive seriously came to you with an open heart and mind asking you to grant me patience, understanding, and an ear to listen to what you want for me. is it because i know what you want for me in the future, but im too scared to listen? im frightened. frightened of what the future holds. to know that one sentence can say it all. that one sentence is the future. funny how one sentence can have the power to change. where do you want me to be God? i know where i want to be, but where exactly do you want me to be? WHAT do you want me to be? WHO do you want me to become?

i've conjured up all these dreams and images, but half of them didnt even include you. im sorry. new day, new beginning right? humble me Lord. continue to reel me back each day to my senses. help me to depend only on You. it's so simple for me to constantly to turn to parents and friends first for support and guidance. this entire semester has proven that. spin me back around to the right side.

and thank You for always being there. for being the one constant, stable, dependable thing in my life.